i don't even know where to begin. working a lot at the daycare and the shelter, so it's nice to have a bit of money. especially since i've been paying back student loans ( i don't recommend it...my advice is to go to school as long as humanely possible to avoid having to pay.) so that sucks. wade and i moved to a loft apartment downtown! that's been pretty awesome. i've gotta practice for city living lol. ya know, scampering about, wearing heels, drinking martinis, not having anywhere to park. that sort of thing. so that has been wonderful. yeeeah...i basically don't do much besides work and go out.
but now that is all starting to change! those very few of you who have read my blog in the past probably know that my doctor had been tinkering around with giving me Ritalin and whatnot. it was supposed to solve alllll of my worldly problems. well...it did not. it did nothing of the sort. i spent about two years struggling to get it. fighting with genesee health plan. fighting with the doctors. blah blah blah. then i finally get to take it consistently and it doesn't even work. good times.
so now i have a new doctor and within a couple of weeks, i have a new prescription. this one actually might be some sort of miracle drug lol it's called wellbutrin. and it is wonderful. side effects at first were horrible. then there was about a week of still nothing. then all of a sudden it just hit me. i hope this keeps up because this shit fucking works! i have more energy than i've had in years. no depression, no anxiety, nothing! i've never liked the idea of being medicated for anything really. but after years of trying other methods, i can't argue with the fact that i need this medicine.at least for now. and i don't even need the adhd meds now because i think that most of my issues have been depression related rather than attention disorder related. i mean, i still talk a mile a minute and i'm hyper as hell, but that's why you all love me, right? ;)
so yeah i did some reading on this miracle drug and i read about a bajillion reviews on different websites for it and the responses are overwhelming positive. so i'm hopeful. i read an article that wellbutrin has been dubbed the "happy horny skinny pill" ummm yes please? sign me up for all three! i have to say, i am most excited about the skinny part. i know, i know. i shouldn't be. but damn it i am so sick of being fat. seriously. i barely weighed enough to donate blood when i graduated from high school. i am aware that was almost ten years ago and i will never ever look like that again lol. but i can be WAY skinnier than this. i want to wear cute clothes and get hot guys and all of those things. i can't complain too much about the guy thing. i've still managed to do better than okay with the fellas despite my size. but not as good as i'd like. no guy gets excited that the fat chick has a crush on them. and i knowww i shouldn't say stuff like that. i preach to my kids at both my jobs that looks don't matter, etc etc. but c'mon. we know they do a little. plus i will feel better about myself if i lose some weight.
so now i've got all this energy, i'm getting shit done. i'm saving money, i'm hitting up the gym often. i'm probably down about 20 lbs in the past three or four months. and that's without really doing anything. i hadn't been to the gym until last week, so i'm looking forward to seeing how much more i lose working out too! i'm gonna be damn sexy. mark my words. by next summer i'm going to be a heartbreaker. well...even more of a heartbreaker than i already have been.
so yeah...that's what's going on. thank you wellbutrin! happy horny and skinny eh? i think that'll suit me just fine. thanks to those of you who have made it through this whole thing! i will probably be doing topic blogs from here on out, this was just a catch up! so until next time!
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