October rocks! =)

2010 has overall been a great year for me...with the exception of September. Good riddance to you September! :P

So now that September has come and gone, 2010 can get back to being awesome. I'll start out by recapping the less-than-awesome things that are going on, but then tell how they got awesome! :)

okay, my car is on the brink of death. i was freaking out about paying for it,and i didn't even send out my rent money on time cuz i thought i would have to pay for it to get fixed. then it seemed to be okay, so i sent out the rent money on monday. and wouldn't ya know it, that day it started messing up worse! then tuesday it died :( but my AMAZING friends jodi and jake sent me some money to get it fixed! :D so it's finally at muffler man getting worked on. so i'm without a car temporarily, but then it's gonna be awesome! i have the bestest friends in the world! <3 everything always works out, i just have to remember that the next time i get stressed!

i had a rough evening at work last night. it wasn't bad at all. i guess i should be happy about it. but there's two girls living at the shelter i work at now. and i was sitting in the office watching tv after they went to bed. then one of them got up and asked if she could talk to me. i naturally said sure, and we talked for like a half an hour. i felt like a counselor! which was actually pretty cool. then she went to bed, and the other girl got up and also wanted to talk! so i talked to her for almost an hour. i honestly don't know how the counselors do it. i couldn't have session after session with the kids. their stories are too sad. i was almost in tears when i was talking to the one girl. i'm def not cut out for that kind of work. i was emotionally exhausted when i got home, lol. both girls were asking me when i worked next and stuff. which makes me feel good that they like me and feel comfortable confiding in me. especially when they have at least one counseling session a day (sometimes up to 3!) but they still wanted to talk to me. yay me!

i'm about 99.9% positive i'm over my most recent ex. i realized today that i haven't even thought about him in days. haven't texted him, haven't wanted to text him. just didn't think to. so that was a somewhat shocking realization. i'm a little surprised, because i am sooo slow to move on and let go (see previous blog, lol) so i'm happy about that. when i thought about it a bit more, i realized it didn't make any sense for me to be upset about things. and i realized why i wasn't getting jealous about the thought of him and other girls. it's because...well i've already been in that relationship. lol and i know what it consisted of. so why would i be upset that someone else has to deal with the things i did? lol i'm not saying it was terrible by any means. but it's not for me. so there's nothing to be upset about because when it comes down to it, that's not what i'm looking for. so that'll prolly be the last time that situation gets mentioned in a blog, because there isn't anything left to say about it.

okay, speaking of guys. i def have a new crush. like for realz. i'm in that "i have butterflies" stage. it kinda hit me last week that i had a crush on this guy. def surprised me. so that's fun! :) hehehehehe so idk what i'm gonna do about it at this point, if anything. but we'll see!

and also, i'm going on a date with this guy that picks up his friends daughter sometimes from my daycare. he's pretty cute and he asked me out at the beginning of the year, but i was seeing someone. and he randomly came in a couple days ago when i was closing at the daycare to pick up the little girl, and he got my new phone number and asked me out, lol. all the kids were teasing me. i was pretty embarassed but it was really cute. his friends daughter that he was there picking up was like "why do you like shawntae" (she's 7ish and clearly knows all about him liking me) and he was like, "i don't know, she's just so pretty and nice" bahhh. lol so i got teased by elementary school kids all day about that. good times. but he's taking me out soon, so we'll see how that goes too!

and to make everything that much better...this week is gonna be reckless fun times. the michigan/msu tailgate is this weekend, art walk is friday, um-flint has a football game we can tailgate for, lora turns 21 sunday, and sunday is also my birthday! :D woooo for fun things everyday! and tonight is our weekly dinner and tomorrow is our sorority date auction and me and like 5 other people are having a "forget how to sit" party. yes...that means we're just going to get hammered. for no reason, lol. i haven't had a reckless night in a long time. somehow i've been a responsible person lately, and i need a night of craziness! so we're doing that tomorrow just on a small scale! :)

so that's an awful lot of awesome considering this is only the first week of october!!! wooo! take that sucky september! :P