Ohhh time to vent, lol

ok, i typically try to keep my internet bitching to a minimum, especially when it involves my ex, cuz everyone knows him. but i've been super irritated lately and i'd rather vent through here, then drunkenly at a bar, haha. so brief venting, then i'm done. i shouldn't feel bad anyways, cuz he spent most of the time we were off and on telling EVERYONE all our business and he never cared about sparing my feelings, but i'd prefer to be the bigger person. buuuut not really right now, lol.

basically last night was my roomie's bday party and my ex showed up at our house before we all went to the bar. harmless mostly. he was most likely invited on fb. buuut he obviously knows i live in that house too. and he told me earlier in the day he was NOT going to go out that night. so i'm hammered drunk and having a freaking blast, and he walks in. i flipped out! lol i was not happy to see him at all. especially unannounced like that. i didn't care for that at allll. normally when he and i are broken up, i like seeing him and talking to him. but seriously, lately i have just lost all respect for him and the thought of seeing him is not at all attractive. when i look at him i don't even see the man i loved. its like i'm looking at someone else, and i don't know who that guy is, but i don't like him. its mostly disappointing i guess. i knew what i was getting into sorta when we first starting dating, but he spent the first half of our relationship convincing me he was different. then he spent the last half pretty much proving to me that he's just the same. the same as he always was, and the same as every guy seems to be. lame. that's a year i can't get back. he facebooked me the other day to tell me he missed me, and for the first time in our year history, i didn't care. he said i was being mean....and i feel bad in a way. but i'm just so over this whole thing. i just honestly feel like i don't know him anymore. it really sucks =(

ohhh well.

in other news: Miracle Ball is tonight and I'm pretty excited! Last night was OX thursday at Churchills and it was AMAZING. I had a blast.

OH! I also found out that I only have 4 classes left til i can graduate! (well technically 5 i guess...one i have to take twice? idk why... its listed like that on the psych program requirements. weird)

And I had a really good job interview yesterday, but i have the feeling i might not get the job because I'm so close to graduating and going away to grad school. i think they want to hire someone they can keep around for a little longer. it went well though, so we'll see. hopefully all the other applicants sucked, haha.

That's all for now I guess.... sorry for the crazy long rant at the beginning. i normally won't bitch quite so much!